Today was a regular day for me. Im a stay at home mom ( im about to pick up a part-time office manager position working with a friend to bring in some extra dough- more about that later.) I know that typical suburban soccer mom picture probebly just flashed threw your mind. To a certain extent, i do embody this very traditional role. I never really classified myself only as a mom though. Im a mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. :) I have many roles besides the steryotyped ideals. It took me years to realize that i didnt need to associate my identity with a career! They should really teach this stuff in school. It would have saved me alot of trouble and heartache in my teens and early 20's while in college trying to be perfect at everything, having it all, and somehow still managing to get married, be a wife and mother before i turned 30!
Anyhow, I woke up early and pushed the "start" button on the coffee maker. I always fill the water and the coffee filter the night before...thats how groggy I am in the morning...water and coffee grounds would be everywhere but in their little compartments if i tried to attempt this at 6 am! I know its lazy, but after having two kids back to back, having surgery and needing to help get a dazed husband out the door...the less i have to think of the better!
The morning started off the same. i run a little online accessory shop, so after my 1 and 2 year old boys had finished their breakfast, i set to work printing and filling orders. By the kids nap time i was ready for coffee number 3, and a quick moment alone on the couch flipping thru our mail. I wasnt concentrating much because my mind had been wondering. Id been feeling really weird lately: hungry, moody, bloated, a little bit of a backache...and very emotional. i wrote it off as "my cycle must be starting soon". But then i realized that i'd been writing off my cycle for a couple of weeks now.
I went to the bathroom and decided to clear up any rediculous suspicions that i had. Ive been known to be quite wrong about these things in the past - even seeing "phantom" lines on negative pregnancy tests! You see, I just recently had my gall bladder removed, and the idea that i could get pregnant was light years away from my mind. I only recntly finished healing and was finally able to pick up the kids again without worry of busting my stitches. :)
I did the little pee-on-the-stick test, set it on the sink, washed up and proceeded to collect up all the laundry around the house. I would have forgotten entirley about the test, accept that we keep the detergant in the bathroom - and there was my little test strip still happily resting there waiting for me. I picked it up and barely glanced at it, assuming i already knew the result. I bent over to toss it into the trash when my eye caught site of a 2nd pink line! It was a little weak...but a very clearly marked line and not one of those shadow marks that happens when you let it sit out all day. I did a double take, ran out of the bathroom into the living room and put the test directly in the sun...as though the extra light would change the result or something! >:o
TWO lines! "Im pregnant? What? WAIT? HHHOOOWWW???"
Good news always seems to come when you least expect it.
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